She is a .............................

I know that she’s a good woman
With a stable sturdy soul
I know she thinks she loves me
But that’s beyond my control.
My heart that grew so fond of you
Has now become quite cold
Heavy with the shame I carry
That echoes in my soul.
Screaming in my head
Tells me I must let her down
My heart’s afraid I’ll crush her
So I dare not make a sound
I’d rather just shut her out
Live in the illusion she has found
That she’s convinced is love
I’ll sink until I drown…

But my emotions get the best of me
when the water hits my mouth
choking and gasping and spouting out lies
that seem wash away her doubt.
I’m drowning in the nightmare
That once was both our dreams
Holding my tongue to my cheek
And swallowing all my screams..

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