Far amazing than what I ever imagined.

She placed a small piece of paper in my hands and blinked her eyes slowly to keep it with me and said, “Read it when I will go.”

“I won’t let you go”, I smiled, “Apoorva, this is the place I saw you for the first time and see, today, I am here with you again. You are the best gift of my life.”

She looked into my eyes and smiled in her most amazing expressions. We walked over to her class and she asked me to go to my class. I kept the note in my pocket and stepped towards the class. It was 9:05 a.m. and I was already late for the class. I sat at the last seat, luckily, alone. I opened the register and took out the note and opened it over the notebook. The teacher like always was preoccupied with the first benchers.

There were few but beautiful lines that she wrote. She is a good writer, I must say. Lucky me!

Now that you are with me, I have got wings to fly, fly anywhere across the sky. Saril, you are the most amazing I have ever come across. Every step that you take, every move you make, I will be walking with you, giving you all your space, yet in sync. I love the way you make me feel. You can brighten up my gloomiest days, I believe in you. Today, I am with you and I've found my soul mate. Thank you for loving me and being who you are <3

I just couldn’t stop myself from staring at the ‘love note’ and read it over and over again. I wanted to hug her, kiss on her forehead and

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Accepting the truth.

Whole night, I kept looking at the bracelet. “What I am going to do with it now?” I thought. I walked out of the room and stood in the balcony. I looked up and imagined Somebody somewhere across the sky.

‘Why did you do this to me? I remember I talked to you last time when we were together. And today, You have made the things worse. I know, this is nobody’s fault, but, you can help me only right now. You already know every detail of the situation I am in. Unfortunately, I want to be out of it. Bring me calls, text, emails, trust…please. Today, that’s all I need to carry on, and it isn't much to ask You for. I am your child. You have done beyond enough for me, but I can't help but ask for more. Because, truly, you are the only one who can bring this storm to peace, who can un-shatter these broken pieces, who can smooth the pottery into something so perfect. So please, do this for me. Can on time be today? Please...?’
And I stood there for an hour in a false hope, waiting for some miracle to happen. It didn't  I recalled the time of last fest in the college, when we both became friends and I started taking dreams. Then came the time when they came true. We shared the priceless moments, though for a very short span. I wondered if I was only sleeping from last few months. I wished that it was merely a dream that I saw. But, I had to accept the truth and none stood there by my side to support me. I felt the chill that ran across my body many times. I wanted to jump from the balcony for a couple of seconds. Then, I struggled to make myself strong. My eyes were wet. I had nothing to do. I don’t smoke. I would have flown away the tensions in the rings of the smoke. Life had put me on a way that I couldn't decide and even think. All the emotions that I had collected from years were flowing out in tears and my mouth was zipped to silence. I could hear

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The chapter of first kiss.

I took out my pen from pocket and started writing a letter cum poem, which I had written long ago and had planned to give it to someone very special to me, on the only tissue I found on that table.

I don’t worry about the dark; I know the sun is mine.

To bring me into light,

I know that it will shine. I know you are my sun.

I don’t worry about the sadness,

I know the rains will fall. To wash away all my tears,

they will come on my every call.

I know you are my rain,

I don’t worry about the world, because I fully believe in you. 

And whatever happens around,

This is how i shall always be yours forever.......

You are my world.

It is rightly said; when you are in love, you feel everything on this earth is yours and you can conquer this whole world with your love, true love.

I stood up and went straight to her folding my love for her in my hands so that she couldn’t see it. I sat beside her this time again taking her hands into mine, feeling the warmth of her love through her veins. We kept looking deep into each other’s eyes for a minute or so and then she then broke the silence, “kya dekh rhe ho?”

I smilingly replied, “I have rights to see you for my whole life now!” and passed her the folded tissue in my hand. She smiled and added, “I wish they remain copyright for me only!” and she started opening it…

I kept staring her, smiling and observed her too closely (Wish I had some magical eyes; you know what I mean) while she was concentrating on the paper. And all of a sudden, she broke into tears which were unexpected. I couldn’t bear that.

I stood up to hug her while she was still crying. I was trying to console her with my love and words; though I was much weak in that, but I tried my level best.

She then said with her childish voice, “Rajeev, I am feeling lucky to have you in my life. I never expected that you will win my heart like this. You are so much caring and loving. I feel like kissing you but the atmosphere around here doesn’t allow me to do that. Let’s move out somewhere else please.”

And how could I refuse her, after all I was expecting a kiss from my girl on my first date?

We picked up our bags and went to school ground, hand in hand and sat under the same tree where we used to spend hours.

I kept my head on her lapse and started feeling anxious, obviously. Everything seemed to be very special for that particular second.
First girlfriend, first date, first kiss….. PRICELESS feeling!
Rest remains the mystery !

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The letters, where will they go ?

I have composed hundreds
of intricate love letters,
with your name written in neat cursive
at the top.
I speak of my swollen heart
and the way your tender hands
feel so natural
against my skin.
I fabricate memories
of the sound of your laughter
as though it is a love song
that frequents my days.
Envelopes are sealed
and kissed with a stamp
to be sent off
to a nonexistent address....

So dear love, whoever you are, when you come to me, please reply !

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