Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The true meaning of Depression

Just another Emotion,
one not very loud.
You hide me with a portion,
but I find a way around.

I don't lurk in corners,
dark spaces or a hole,
I am deep within you,
resting in your soul.

I don't shout or scream,
grow or slowly creep,
I just continue on,
to make you eternally weep.

I am the inner shame,
the ripple of all sin,
an endless open void,
the echo from within.


Like an open wound,
every sore you bare,
the tarring & the pain,
is all mine to wear.

I multiply the hurt,
redirect all tears,
counting your worth,
& playing on your fears.

The master of memories,
king of manipulation,
I re-run the sorrow,
& stack the precipitation.

All the flashes of pain,
every and each day,
another horrible memory,
I make sure to stay.

The ever consistency,
to never leave your side,
I'm the prince standing,
whispering who lied.

I don't press on,
or even really try,
I am simply just,
the never ending cry...

Sunday, September 25, 2011

When ever you get Too happy, something bad happens !!

The secret is, I trust people much too easily.
When someone asks for
my attention, I more than
happily plunge into
their gaze, smile too much
& listen too much. I
create a false image of
someone else on my own,
believe their sincerity
with my whole heart.
Therefore I am my own downfall, &
there is not one person
to blame besides myself.

as i slowly stop missing you,
i realize that you weren't
that important to me anyway.

When I think about love, I think
about when I was little, and I
automatically knew what I wanted.
Love should come to you
just like that. Like your
favorite color comes to you, or how a
smile comes across your face.
It should just hit you and you
should know that's how it's supposed to be.

I've been walked on, used and forgotten
and I don't regret one moment of it
because in those moments, I've
learned a lot. I've learned who
I can trust and can't. I've learned the
meaning of friendship. I've learned how
to tell when people are lying and when
they're sincere. I've learned how to be a
teenager, and how to grow up when I need to.
I've been to hell and back a few times,
and I won't ever take what I have for granted.
This is life, live it one day at a time.
You never know how many days you've got left.

You were never a waste of time,
you were just a harsh realization
that I could do better.

just as i began to heal and
the scars began to disappear,
you had to break me and bring me back down.

Who would of thought that someone like me
could have fallen in love so easily?

Behind every beautiful, strong girl,
there’s a dumb ass guy who did her wrong
and made her strong !

I often think that the night is more alive
and more richly colored than the day.

Turn up the radio and sing your
lungs out. Because
kid, this is it. And this
is all it will ever be. So get
used to it & suck it up and live !!

you look like i need another drink
I heard slut is the new craze.
Well aren't you just the little trendsetter.

& you were the one that damaged her.
not broken completely, but you were
just the one who made her think
twice about getting that close
to anyone, because she was afraid
she would just end up getting hurt
just like you did.

The most hated words to a girl? "Just friends."
That is the last thing we want to hear when
we're talking to that one guy. If you really think
we see you as only a friend, then my gosh boys,
you are just too clueless for me to believe.

Whenever something happens that is not part
of your plan, you pretend like it doesn't exist.
you act like you're in this movie about your
perfect like, but I have to remind you that the
only one watching is you.

men were born to lie and women were born
to believe them.

It's like a fucking drug deal.
I'm sitting here waiting.
I'm calling you back and you
won't call me back and it's fucked up,
but at the same time,
it just makes me want you even more.

She's scared to tell him because of
that one stupid boy that led her on,
made her believe he actually liked her,
then just told her it was over.
don't you get it?
she's afraid to love
because of that one boy.

When friends kiss, they break the line. They're
no longer friends, but something just before lovers.
Caught in between.

because when ever you get
Too happy, something bad happens...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

My fingers say a lot !


Our Fingers are family !


It's all about happiness !


But some times they are sad, still Someone is there to take care!


But when it a joy, its fun !


Sometimes, we feel that we are under pressure !


Sometimes, we fell so alone !


We meet many ***hole people !


And we hate them too !


But in a big rush, we find someone surely !


We feel comfortable with them slowly :)


We start talking ;)


Soon, we become the cute friends,rather, Best friends :)


We then, talk in eyes to them !


We share gifts :)


We then feel ourselves falling in love ;)


We then move a step forward !


then, they move step forward !


And one day, We feel that our world is completed :)


We share the world around us :)


We make love :*


We get a family :)


And we grow old !


More old...


but Our love- It stays with us forever :)

Monday, September 19, 2011

The unwritten !

My mind is soiled with words unwritten on paper. The emotions erupting into silent outbursts inside my head. My mind cant utilize sleeping nor resting for it needs to be relieved by the fog circulating about it. Numbing me into total restlessness. I paced and paced the night on by. Tossing and twirling about my silk covers. The moon beamed at me, mocking my tired sleepy eyes, drooping with exhaustion. I let out sighs repeating over time...
Words. Emotions. Phrases unsaid....


My pen-hand shaking to succumb to its purpose. To quiet the beast inside this deceptive brain, feed him with countless scribbles of tainted words and curiosity on paper. Images that make up a dreamland, stained forever by this sleepless hours of darkness. Alas, the rooster crows. The beginning of a new day. Same as the days that had gone by. New and yet still too familiar. And so I lay on scribbled papers and ink-splattered tile floors, I sighed a long and tired sigh.
I wish you knew that I cant sleep.... knowing you are not here by my side...